Thankful for You and Rudy

Dear Friends and Family,
On this day of giving thanks, I want to thank you all for being such amazing prayer warriors for me, and those in my life.  I know you take time to continually life me up, the ministry God has placed me in, and all those connected with the orphanage.  You pray for my family, and my friends, and those prayers are felt daily.
Today, I want to tell you that I am thankful for sweet Rudy.  I spent the day at the hospital because I just couldn't leave.  When I arrived this morning, I was informed that his condition had worsened, and that he was in a coma.  He has swelling in his brain, and blood around the brain.  His pupils are dilated, and they have done everything they can do.  Now his body has to do the rest.
I spent the day wrestling with what someone told me on Tuesday, "You have to prepare for him to die."  I refused to do that.  As today wore on, I realized that man is correct.  My prayers became truly about God showing mercy to this little one, whatever that may look like.  As I watched his labored breathing, I realized how much I truly love this little one, and how much I want what is best for him, whether that be to recover from this, or to go and be with Jesus.  I watched 3 nurses try desperately for over an hour to find a vein for Rudy's IV, but with no success.  I watched them call in a surgeon to open up his leg to locate a vein.  The surgeon worked with extremely dim light for almost an hour and a half, then finally found something he could work with.  The whole time I watched Rudy's gasping breaths.  When I left at 3:00 this afternoon, he was in the same condition.  But I was in a much different condition than I had been the last time I left his side.  I have to trust that God truly is sovreign.  That He is God, and I am not, and in that, His plan for each of us is perfect.  Even His plan for Rudy.  And His plan for me.  And His plan for each of you.
The words of this song kept playing in my mind all day long.  We sing this song a lot at church here.  I sang them over and over again as I rubbed Rudy's arm and kissed his sweet head.
I love you all, and ask that you continue to pray for Rudy.
With a thankful heart,
angie

You Never Let Go
By Matt Redman

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
Your perfect love is casting out fear
And even when I'm caught in the middle of the storms of this life
I won't turn back
I know you are near

And I will fear no evil
For my God is with me
And if my God is with me
Whom then shall I fear?
Whom then shall I fear?

(Chorus:)
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me

And I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
A glorious light beyond all compare
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
We'll live to know You here on the earth

(Chorus)

Yes, I can see a light that is coming for the heart that holds on
And there will be an end to these troubles
But until that day comes
Still I will praise You, still I will praise You

(Chorus 2x's)
© 2006 Sparrow

Christian lyrics - YOU NEVER LET GO LYRICS - MATT REDMAN